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Why? Because it has been more than one month and I just wake up every morning without a routine.
What did I do in the past month?
I have poor memory. I could only recalled porridge buffet, occasional runs, shopping at bugis/city hall, reading books that I couldn't read when I was studying and watching shows as well.
One new task recently is to accompany uncle.
Cousin is away for her honeymoon, so the task of accompanying uncle is left in the hand of us, the younger generation. He has been discharged from hospital recently because of some unknown infections but in any case, glad that he is well again, though diagnosed high cholesterol and some liver problem. I know he has been wanting to start working, but just have to wait for my cousin to be back and wait for his next medical appointment to confirm whether he is suitable for work.
As we grow up, the adults are bound to grow older and weaker, sometimes I just wish that time stays. They would be just as healthy. But nope, news of falling sick, hospitalisation are never-ending and never going to end, i guess. Just hope that they could be more receptive to going to doctor if they are unwell. Many other things could then be prevented.
Other than feeling that adults are growing older, feelings of uncertainty caught me too. What lies ahead for me? Continuation of education or starting to work? No answer yet.
Read this off my friend's blog and it rang a bell to me, I'm going through the same thing, I guess:
after a busy day of work, or after a busy sem in school, the only thing you would like to do, is it lie on ur sofa and relax for the rest of the day, or lie around like your bed and listening to songs..or watch shows alone. sometimes, this fatigue can last for weeks, or even months, (i call this the charging process) and you find going out, entertaining people is a hassle. unless the person is someone you can really talk very well with, click very well with, otherwise, you would rather stay by yourself and not talk to anyone, reply any messages, sometimes even wish to hide offline... but to keep that friendship going, you know you have to meet up with friends once in a while, you often check facebook and envy people who got people write messages on their wall. you do not have many close friends, the close friends that you have, is self-proclaimed close frenz... and you think that, close friends dont have to meet up all the time, have 1 really close fren is much better than have millions of friends but none is close to you. and sometimes becos of this, you rather keep things to yourself; not because you want to, but its because you have no one to talk to.. but most of the times, you dont want to bother others..
So all the above sum up what I've been feeling these days.
Come to think of it, and it didn't hit me that it's my last project, last report and last presentation.
and hey, I'm doing my last script. How weird it is.
Imagine, a 20 mins presentation to sum up what has been done over a year.
Not that it cannot be done, but it feels a little sad.
All in all, I enjoyed the process. It feels good to be in the group, we survived:
- Discussing our proposal from scratch
- Literature search & discussions
- Oral viva
- The real challenge: Data collection
- Data analysis Still remember how we whined about transcribing the video
- Report writing (Nowwwww!)
- Making of ppt (Nowwww!)
- Script writing (Nowwww!)
- The last step : Presentation gosh...... I'm kinda anticipating yet nervous
You passed like you have wings. I haven't have time to stop and reflect. I haven't keep to my own promise. It doesn't feel like a good year, neither is it a bad year. Some words that I wish to say so that I can make a closure to 2011 (in random order):
1. Ts: I thank you for still treating me as a friend and I think the occasional conversations we have now are sufficient for now, probably.
2. Em & Mh, thank you for always being there for me, though we meet less often nowadays due to busy schedules that we have. Glad that we walked through so many years of friendship and still going well.
3. e7 girls: I'm glad we are still meeting every few months and this kind of maintains our bonds. Whatsapp has made us even closer, many thanks to the technological advances. Very happy that ky is back with us :) and we had an awesome celebration for her bd and christmas. More gatherings, please?
4. JC gang: I realised the gang met less often, like...every 4 months? lols! but I'm glad we are still so so so strong :) We still can HTHT, okay some of us. Other than that idiot who kept saying I'm fat, he replaced the word with chubby but hello, still fat right? More frequent gatherings la.
5. e7: some of us are still close even though it's already 5 years since we graduated... It was a great countdown at Ting's house, I look forward to CNY :)
6. Poly clique: we are at our last laps already, this coming year spells separations, some of us will be working, some of us are leaving. I hope I can join you guys to graduation trip and I treasure the remaining time we have. 3 years pass so fast. Like Xiang said, we should keep in contact, be it where you are.
7. to myself: I went past 2011 trying to survive studies, just cannot seem to find the motivation to work hard. I wish for myself to be more motivated this coming year, I'm starting work and I look forward to 2 years later.. Bai, I hope we really can go overseas together to study :) JIAYOU JIAYOU!
2012, to be continued....
Hakuna Matata! What a wonderful phrase
Hakuna Matata! Ain't no passing craze
It means no worries for the rest of your days
It's our problem-free philosophy
Hakuna Matata!
Hakuna Matata! Hakuna matata!
Hakuna Matata! Hakuna matata!
Hakuna Matata! Hakuna matata!
Hakuna Matata! Hakuna--
It means no worries for the rest of your days
It's our problem-free philosophy
Hakuna Matata!
(Repeats)
I say "Hakuna"
I say "Matata"
It's time to get more disciplined, but shall just give myself some rest time before going out to help my brother to repair laptop and then back to work :)
It's so good to sleep in today!
Depression is setting in -.-
So many things to do.
Just feel like staying at home whole day to focus on work.
So no life though.
But then since I want to watch Lion King, and don't fly people aeroplanes, I shall step out of house to watch.
Guess I need to burn midnight oil, leave me alone, my bed.
How am I supposed to complete my work?
Good luck to me.
Music heals.
To you, we are always friends.
- 8 weeks is fast when you enjoy the placement
- Painted elderly's house after such a long time. Being a volunteer never fail to help me appreciate the life I have now.
- Ran 10K with guo, and I ran slower than the previous time but then I know I tried!
- Ubin trip with guo is fun! I think I'll visit there again to cycle. The scenery is great, of course the company isn't that bad afterall, though we looked like les over there
- Had a great time with e7 for kai's birthday, glad she love the presents even though I overbudget-ed.
- Met crabbies out and always good to have chat with them. Maybe I should get my 10 years 20 years 30 years plans out, sometimes this few weeks..
- Sometimes I wonder why money is so important to someone else and if money even wins over letting someone happy
- I guess that was the only time I felt extremely upset for this few months.
- It's okay, I'm all well
- I just need some time alone to finish up my drama and get to the real business.
- Caught Real Steel with bai, xj and guo today, it was great!
- Honeymoon is over
- I need to start my engine
- Get going, :)
- Jiayou, my fellow OTs ! We gonna all get there :)
I don't know why I feel rather empty today, probably cos I wasn't feeling well.
Or probably I find myself nothing to look forward to next day even though i have lots of things lining up for me,
Or probably i haven't have time to slow down to look around me
Or probably the feeling I have every night, the kind of weird feeling I feel, it makes me doesn't feel like doing anything at night.
So what's the conclusion?
I desperately need some rest.
Haven't been blogging the longest time.
Nowadays I feel like........................ a robot living. i don't know why
but well I kinda like it since I don't have to worry that I have nothing to do the next time.
There's always something to do.
Nowadays I feel like........................ a robot living. i don't know why
but well I kinda like it since I don't have to worry that I have nothing to do the next time.
There's always something to do.
Since XJ said her friends haven't been blogging, I shall blog and let my readers read hehe.
I haven't start my CRD yet, GG
I better start today
Actually this attachment didn't stress me, it's I me and myself who stress myself
Nowadays my weekend has been saturday either fyp or nua till I want, because monday to thursday have been hectic
and Friday since it's the last day of working week, I nua as well and also I've got tuition.
By the time I've reached home, I just want to hit the sack
And Sunday is treatment planning day and tuition.
Gosh I realised I can only tolerate 3 days tuition, 4 days is really tiring.
But I have no choice.
Kid's PSLE is coming and I just have to endure and endure till he finishes his PSLE
and then I get to rest.
And I realised that if it's a weekend, I can sleep up to 11hours.
Weekday, I need about 5-6hours. That's almost like..double.
Today I slept from 10-10 gosh.
Okay, better start doing my treatment plans first because wednesday won't have time to do! :(
Anyway there's an opportunity for me, should I grab it or leave it?
I haven't start my CRD yet, GG
I better start today
Actually this attachment didn't stress me, it's I me and myself who stress myself
Nowadays my weekend has been saturday either fyp or nua till I want, because monday to thursday have been hectic
and Friday since it's the last day of working week, I nua as well and also I've got tuition.
By the time I've reached home, I just want to hit the sack
And Sunday is treatment planning day and tuition.
Gosh I realised I can only tolerate 3 days tuition, 4 days is really tiring.
But I have no choice.
Kid's PSLE is coming and I just have to endure and endure till he finishes his PSLE
and then I get to rest.
And I realised that if it's a weekend, I can sleep up to 11hours.
Weekday, I need about 5-6hours. That's almost like..double.
Today I slept from 10-10 gosh.
Okay, better start doing my treatment plans first because wednesday won't have time to do! :(
Anyway there's an opportunity for me, should I grab it or leave it?
